Picking Lana up. . .

Ben called me this morning and said, "I can pick Lana up today." His words reminded me of when he would pick you up from Thunderbird after work and I can just picture the two of y0u driving down the road together.

I met Ben with the boys at the mortuary to pick up your ashes. The experience was about as it might have been if you were here. . Matthew was very two and Andrew a smiley chubby almost-one-year-old:) So it was perfect. We could have used your set of hands though.

Matthew remembered the mortuary and said he wanted to go in the chapel "to wake mommy up." I am glad he remembers the viewing. I know he doesn't understand it yet, but he will have that memory locked away until he does.

For the record I was doing all sorts of crazy stuff to get those boys smiling. . fart noises, hitting myself on the head, tickles, etc. . . even Ben could not resist my charm.

Your sweetest friend Melanye got this box for you and I think it is so beautiful and perfect for your personality. Ben thought having you with him would bring him comfort, I think it will too.

Your boys. . . They are going to be okay Lans.

Then Ben drove off with you in the passenger seat. . . I hope you had a nice time together.