Christmas love. . .

People told me over and over again to love on Ben and the boys during the holidays. . because the holidays are the toughest. And your passing right before the festivities were to begin. . . You and Ben had big plans to go and get a live tree this year.

Apparently every one else got the memo to love on your boys . . . there was an outpouring of love on your man and little men this year. Ben was near speechless when he came into the store to find a truckload of gifts under the store tree. Grandparents were there Christmas morning to smile and laugh and delight in your little angels. And they were spoiled. They were happy.

Your chubby lump on his little lump with wheels and Matthew loving his new scooter.

bikes, cars, trains, art sets, trucks, clothes, pjs, shoes. . . .these boys are set.

I am sure you were watching with eager anticipation with that gorgeous watermelon smile as they opened each present with screeches of delight. You did everything you could to stay with them and I have to believe you are still with them . . comforting them and loving them.

When you were still at Del Webb before you lost your ability to talk I had asked you what you wanted to get the boys for Christmas. You were pretty practical and said they needed some winter clothes but said you wanted them to have a few stuffed animals. As per your instruction I found them a small Elmo and Cookie monster. Ben gave them to the babies Christmas Day . . .the last gift their mommy picked out for them.

I hope you had fun at the big birthday party too. . Merry Christmas my girl.