Dear sweet Ilana,
There is not a day or moment that goes by where you are not in it. The pain inside me is so immense and my heart is as heavy as it has been in my entire life. I don't know how I will ever get beyond this, but like in the song "Tears in Heaven" I must be strong and carry on. I desperately want to see you, feel your sweet touch with a big hug, enjoy your laughter, and of course you glowing, magnanimous smile.
Tomorrow is Ground Hog Day and I will be watching one of your all time favorite movies, remember how we always used to kid each other about "hey moron your bus is leaving".
Ilana, no matter what I am doing or thinking you always just seem to pop into my head. On the way to the gym, early in the morning when it is dark and when I am alone you have the strongest presence within me. It seems like I can be fine one minute and balling like a baby the next.
I have tried and I am getting closer and closer to the boys and guess what I got Matthew those little bottles of chocolate milk he likes. Remember how you laughed when I got them for him, but it wasn't a bad idea. Oh my precious Ilana those children have all the love, joy, caring, laughter just like you. They are you and they always will be, forever. Of course Ben will have a big say in all of that and you can ease your mind because he is doing a fabulous job. He loves those boys so much and they love him and always will, until they become teenagers (ha Ha!)
So Ilana every time I think of you I have another memory, and I guess that will have to do for now.
Your loving Dad forever and ever
There is not a day or moment that goes by where you are not in it. The pain inside me is so immense and my heart is as heavy as it has been in my entire life. I don't know how I will ever get beyond this, but like in the song "Tears in Heaven" I must be strong and carry on. I desperately want to see you, feel your sweet touch with a big hug, enjoy your laughter, and of course you glowing, magnanimous smile.
Tomorrow is Ground Hog Day and I will be watching one of your all time favorite movies, remember how we always used to kid each other about "hey moron your bus is leaving".
Ilana, no matter what I am doing or thinking you always just seem to pop into my head. On the way to the gym, early in the morning when it is dark and when I am alone you have the strongest presence within me. It seems like I can be fine one minute and balling like a baby the next.
I have tried and I am getting closer and closer to the boys and guess what I got Matthew those little bottles of chocolate milk he likes. Remember how you laughed when I got them for him, but it wasn't a bad idea. Oh my precious Ilana those children have all the love, joy, caring, laughter just like you. They are you and they always will be, forever. Of course Ben will have a big say in all of that and you can ease your mind because he is doing a fabulous job. He loves those boys so much and they love him and always will, until they become teenagers (ha Ha!)
So Ilana every time I think of you I have another memory, and I guess that will have to do for now.
Your loving Dad forever and ever
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