The latest

I have A LOT of catching up to do, but wanted to give the latest updates. So after receiving a cancer free diagnosis just two months ago, Lans is back in the hospital. Her pain grew intense once again and she went back to the ER. A new MRI showed several bone lesions in her sacrum and pelvis and a few small ones on her lower lumbar. I really hope I'm not getting these details wrong. . . I'm not a nurse yet so it's all a bit Greek to me. She has been receiving radiation treatment and will continue to receive it daily until she has received 10 treatments. The radiation is supposed to help with the pain which on a scale of 1 to 10 was at a 9.5. But before it gets better it gets worse because it causes inflammation initially.

They ordered another MRI to look at her brain and spine. Brain is clear. There was one little spot on her spine. They did a needle biopsy to get a sample of that spot as well as some of the area around the bone lesions as well. Just got results back on those and they were inconclusive so she had to have another one today . . and my other sis-in-law said she could barely talk afterwards- it's painful stuff. If I understand it right the results will let us know what kind of cells we are trying to fight and what form of chemo will be used after radiation.

She is getting pain meds around the clock and when they are given in proper intervals it keeps her pain level at around a 4 or 5 (all these drugs for a girl who had never taken more than a prenatal vitamin). I think they were putting her on a pump which will keep the meds flowing regularly.

Our little yoga goddess has been laying so still that her muscles aren't bulging like they once were - she fell in the bathroom a few days ago so now they won't let her get out of bed without help. "I have to wear "the red socks" now" - a sign for the nurses to help her out.

In spite of all the serious crap she is dealing with that girl is still cracking jokes! A patient at their store gave her a little bear that both she and another cancer conqueror would rub for good luck. She said that after a very rough night she woke up in tremendous pain and grabbed the bear and started carressing it and pleading to it, "please take the pain away, I'll do anything you want!" She then jokingly rubbed the bear on her chest and thighs and started laughing her head off .. . only to turn to the bear a moment later and apologize for her behavior.

She joked about how often we say "I'm dying in pain" or "there must be a light at the end of the tunnel." ". .. I mean let's get one thing straight no ones dying and we aren't going near the light at the end of the tunnel! No light! No light!"

She half laughed and half cried that she was able to go all around the cancer floor "with a walker." I told her that she is not wearing the "Ooops I crapped my pants" yet so not to worry.

She is so special.