chemo

So Lans had a round of chemo on Saturday and another round today. I forget the name of the chemo they used - but essentially they remove some spinal fluid (because the spine can only hold a certain amount of fluid) and then the inject the chemo directly in the spine. I guess this form is just for the spine so the side effects are not too bad. I am not sure what day she will start the hard core chemo, I understand it is tough stuff. . They will do two rounds and then they will do the bone marrow transplant almost immediately after.

Pam (Lan's mom) worked in a cancer center for a very long time and said the transplant is a tough recovery - probably a month recovery. Pam is remarkable. She completely put her life on hold when Lan's got sick. She moved in and has been there to take care of babies (she got up with Andrew pretty much every night of his life), she calmed fears, she held hands.. . Pam told me when Lan's was going through chemo "She is so brave. . I just look at her and am amazed by the person she is. I don't think it is just because she is my daughter either, I am certain I would feel the same way even if she wasn't . . she is just so brave and so strong." I am pretty sure I know where she gets it. And she is right, it is not just because she is her mother, Ilana is absolutely remarkable.

I love the look on Lans face with her mom, I feel the same when I lay my head in my moms lap. . there is a comfort that only a mama can give.