Happy Mothers Day!

Happy Mothers day Lans!!!

We wish so badly that you were here to celebrate yesterday. Because truthfully, yesterday was hard. . . it was at times excruciatingly sad.   We all hurt, but it is your boys we think of.  It seems so unfair that they don't get to feel your loving arms.   I am certain you are there for them and I hope they will feel your presence throughout their lives.  

 They are perfection.

It is hard to believe that just a little less than a year ago I took these pictures.  

 Of the mama and her mama. .

 And this .. . .

Ben was so teary last night missing you.  Those big sad chocolate eyes break my heart.  He aches for you  Lans...  You completed him and he talked repeatedly of "so much loss."  I hate seeing him in so much pain. .. I wish I could fix it.  But if our grief is a measure of the love we felt, then maybe our tears are tribute to you. .. If so, we are paying quite the tribute.   Miss you Lans- hope you and Bubby had a great celebration.